Every one of my boyfriends has been a ______, and why I changed my life.

Sometimes in my daily life, I'll notice something unknown to me. I'll notice a couple, except that these people are actually very content. The boyfriend is supportive, the girlfriend encouraging and elated. Maybe it was 15 years of only having myself to depend on through my life. Maybe my views on people changed. Every one of my boyfriends was, or turned out to be a criminal. What is insane is that I thought that maybe I could fill them with empathy, or possibly magically make them realize their ways or be able to connect with people. I was wrong and I wasted my time. It was around the beginning of this year when I saw so clearly that I had made a mistake. None of them wanted help at all or appreciated it. Day by day I made small changes beginning with myself, then my diet, the company that I keep, and my values. Life is a lot different now, and I can't ever figure out why on earth I thought that people could be saved. Looking forward to a brighter future, all I am left with is the motto- "I used to look out for people, now I just look out for people".