Marie came to me because I always have been vigilant and seen how bullies tear their victims apart sometimes. It hurts to see, and I never understood how it goes on so often. As a child, other kids were mean to me, but nothing serious. Marie's abuse is not shown in the story, but it is a higher level of abuse than I never hope any child should have to go through.
Marie stands and watches the other children play. Legs kicking swings higher into the air, bright smiles and laughter. A single leaf drifts slowly down and distant thunder is heard in the distance. She fades away.
Clouds of dust mark the school bus's arrival. Eleice runs to the door, full of questions about Marie's school day. Big sisters try to protect. Big sisters try to be role models. Big sisters turn a blind eye to abuse.
"Did you have a good day, Marie?"
Stooped down to eye level, Eleice tries on her kindest big sister smile. Marie turns her back, silently trods down the dark hallway. The beatings continue. Her spirit is turning gray. She cries, hungry, and no one comes to comfort her. She rubs her bruised skin, an old habit, and tries to escape into the night.
Days pass, seasons pass, but life stays the same. She is tired now, tries to stand up straight but can't anymore. Fragments of memory flit through her mind like wild butterflies. She sees the hand, not the face, coming down again. Hears the harsh words. She squeezes her eyes shut tighter. It never ends. At school she hears them talk.
"She's so different."
"I hate her."
"Why don't you smile, Marieeee?"
Syllables drawn out into a nasty mockery. She cannot explain or voice the pain inside, and if they could see it, they would scream.
Home is not home but a place she is dragged back to, needs for survival. Years pass and she is older now, boys are attracted to her. They make things worse. It is the same hand, the same voice, but different people wield it against her, even though by now she has learned that the past is the past. Sitting in a room with a brightly painted cartoon dog on the wall, they peer at her like a specimen. They write notes. It's all a game to them. Questions, so many questions, until she puts her head in her arms and curls into a tight ball. They whisper about her now, she can hear the mock pity in their voices, the scritch-scratch of pens on paper, writing more observations. Then the doors open and she is free until next Saturday. Eleice doesn't smile at her now, she looks down with what looks like pity. She whispers about Marie, too, when she thinks she isn't listening.
One day it is too much. She is too tired and knows what lies ahead. She knows. Wearily yet determined she pulls the noose tight around her neck. Bends her head in a last wish, and goes.
They whisper still, yet not as much as before.
"She was troubled."
"She didn't want to live."
Marie still listens, although lacking her sight, it is still the same to her. It's how life was before. The tunnels are dark, so dark, and she calls it home. She is free like the wind, the birds sing their greetings to her, the moon is her night light. She smiles, finally, and fades away.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Monday, July 11, 2011
End Human Subject Experimentation by DOD/Intel and Law Enforcement in the US
- target: Attorney General, Eric Holder and Tom Perez, Office of Civil Rights, US Department of Justice
- sponsored by: Lisa L. Thornburgh, JD - Project Eidelweiss
- signature goal: 10,000,000
UPDATE: PETITION WITHDRAWN DUE TO this petition is closed, reason: Petitioner frightened to post. Ongoing harassment/threats. Petition is withdrawn
Illegal surveillance technologies, labelled "influence technologies", "crowd control", "behaviour modification" technologies are illegally used daily by US federal and state agencies, for "attitude adjustment" purposes, "law enforcement training purposes". Illegal scanning devices (such as those used at airports) are tested and used on persons and their effects, in direct violation of US and International laws. These weapons are used illegally to "alter personalities", or in common parlance - mind control. Under US and international laws, "altering personalities" constitutes "torture". Using illegal radiological weapons/devices on human beings implies intent to murder, in most US jurisdictions. (See Thornburgh v. US Department of Energy (2009), Thornburgh v. US Department of Defense (2006).) According to law enforcement, these devices, or weapons of mass destruction (as classified by the United Nations) are used for "target practice" ("law enforcement training purposes") on civilians. Effects of these weapons/devices on public health (i.e. ongoing exposure to X-ray and electromagnetic radiation) are unknown to the general public. Indeed, this is what DOD (under congressionally funded Project # 3022, costing taxpayers 45 million dollars per year) seeks to determine. The project specifically studies the effects of these radiological weapons/devices on the most vulnerable in our society, pregnant women (seeking effects of radiation on fetuses) and the elderly.) Several other human rights organizations, including the ACLU Technology and Civil Liberties division, has filed FOIA requests (ACLU v. NSA, et. al (2006)) requesting answers to the illegal use of these "brain scanning" technologies, et al on the human population by DOD, CIA, DOE, DHS, et al. Frightenly, some suggest that the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan provided opportunites to test these nonlethal technologies illegally on human beings (ADS Sherif weapon was/is used in Iraq and Afghanistan on defenseless civilians, including women and children). Recently, the President of Afghanistan, after numerous killings of civilians, stated its concern of American's experimenting with this technology on its civilians.
Please sign this petition to Mr. Eric Holder, US Attorney General, and Mr. Tom Perez, US Department of Justice, Office of Civil Rights Division (and a former professor of mine at the University of Maryland School of Law) to immediately investigate this illegal and unconscionable use of these illegal weapons and devices on the human population, disclosing prior testing and the data showing the effects of these radiological weapons/devices on human health.
Sincerely,
Lisa L. Thornburgh, JD
Human Rights Defender
Project Eidelweiss
95 Myers Circle
Mosheim, Tennessee 37818
423.422.4092
and the following concerned citizens/civilians less
Illegal surveillance technologies, labelled "influence technologies", "crowd control", "behaviour modification" technologies are illegally used daily by US federal and state agencies, for "attitude adjustment" purposes, "law enforcement training purposes". Illegal scanning devices (such as those used at airports) are tested and used on persons and their effects, in direct violation of US and International laws. These weapons are used illegally to "alter personalities", or in common parlance - mind control. Under US and international laws, "altering personalities" constitutes "torture". Using illegal radiological weapons/devices on human beings implies intent to murder, in most US jurisdictions. (See Thornburgh v. US Department of Energy (2009), Thornburgh v. US Department of Defense (2006).) According to law enforcement, these devices, or weapons of mass destruction (as classified by the United Nations) are used for "target practice" ("law enforcement training purposes") on civilians. Effects of these weapons/devices on public health (i.e. ongoing exposure to X-ray and electromagnetic radiation) are unknown to the general public. Indeed, this is what DOD (under congressionally funded Project # 3022, costing taxpayers 45 million dollars per year) seeks to determine. The project specifically studies the effects of these radiological weapons/devices on the most vulnerable in our society, pregnant women (seeking effects of radiation on fetuses) and the elderly.) Several other human rights organizations, including the ACLU Technology and Civil Liberties division, has filed FOIA requests (ACLU v. NSA, et. al (2006)) requesting answers to the illegal use of these "brain scanning" technologies, et al on the human population by DOD, CIA, DOE, DHS, et al. Frightenly, some suggest that the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan provided opportunites to test these nonlethal technologies illegally on human beings (ADS Sherif weapon was/is used in Iraq and Afghanistan on defenseless civilians, including women and children). Recently, the President of Afghanistan, after numerous killings of civilians, stated its concern of American's experimenting with this technology on its civilians.
Please sign this petition to Mr. Eric Holder, US Attorney General, and Mr. Tom Perez, US Department of Justice, Office of Civil Rights Division (and a former professor of mine at the University of Maryland School of Law) to immediately investigate this illegal and unconscionable use of these illegal weapons and devices on the human population, disclosing prior testing and the data showing the effects of these radiological weapons/devices on human health.
Sincerely,
Lisa L. Thornburgh, JD
Human Rights Defender
Project Eidelweiss
95 Myers Circle
Mosheim, Tennessee 37818
423.422.4092
and the following concerned citizens/civilians less
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Quote
People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road, doesn't mean they've gotten lost. -Dalai Lama
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Wheat and Gluten
For the past year I've been interested in studies about wheat and gluten.
Brain fog.
Lack of energy.
Sinking mood.
Confusion.
Lack of motivation.
The list goes on..
One of my favorite newfound articles is this one by cardiologist Dr. William Davis.
http://lovingjacqui.net/wheat-activates-depression-acerbates-schizophrenia-other-neurological-problem/
Brain fog.
Lack of energy.
Sinking mood.
Confusion.
Lack of motivation.
The list goes on..
One of my favorite newfound articles is this one by cardiologist Dr. William Davis.
http://lovingjacqui.net/wheat-activates-depression-acerbates-schizophrenia-other-neurological-problem/
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
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